A Brief Overview
i have 2 kids, Q is newly 3 and H is 6 weeks old. i have a husband, A is 31. A runs his dad's business and hopefully will one day be an owner. i run a drapery business part time with my mom, M. i am trying to certify to be a doula but that's on hold until the breastfeeding is over. we have 2 dogs, Dex and Howie and a cat Hewie. my mom and sister S live with us and my other sister AJ goes to ACAD and is coming home for the summer at the end of april. so as you can see life is busy.
well the time has come for me to stop burning up hours on facebook and to start recording our life and what's in it for posterity. not sure if the blog is the best way to go about it but better than saving a lame word file of a journal that i will want to delete every time i look at it.
where to start? i am pushing 30, like really pushing it, only 6 weeks to go and i am so there. i've waited my whole life to be 30. i spent countless hours in my childhood dreaming of the day i would turn 30 because surely by then i would have it all figured out. i'm pretty sure i don't have it all figured out but i do know that i am stable, happy and in a really good place. so i was right, 30 is going to be an arrival, a much earned and bittersweet arrival and then a departure into new goals and changes. aging isn't scary. what is scary is thinking that becoming an adult isn't a plateau we reach and then just coast, i thought when i was younger that once you are an adult you are there and everything stays the same until you die. what i know now is that i am a very different person than i was when i was 25 so one would assume i will be different again at 35. this isn't a shocking bit of knowing but it is an awakening for me. i can be better and happier next year and the year after that, there isn't this lame lull of day to day crap i thought it would be.
there is freedom in arriving here, at this pitstop of 30 and knowing there is more to come. freedom in knowing everyday doesn't have to be the same as the one before and freedom to change and do and be whatever we want. arriving at 30 has made me free to let go of everything i've been hanging on to and freedom to move forward with determination.
well the time has come for me to stop burning up hours on facebook and to start recording our life and what's in it for posterity. not sure if the blog is the best way to go about it but better than saving a lame word file of a journal that i will want to delete every time i look at it.
where to start? i am pushing 30, like really pushing it, only 6 weeks to go and i am so there. i've waited my whole life to be 30. i spent countless hours in my childhood dreaming of the day i would turn 30 because surely by then i would have it all figured out. i'm pretty sure i don't have it all figured out but i do know that i am stable, happy and in a really good place. so i was right, 30 is going to be an arrival, a much earned and bittersweet arrival and then a departure into new goals and changes. aging isn't scary. what is scary is thinking that becoming an adult isn't a plateau we reach and then just coast, i thought when i was younger that once you are an adult you are there and everything stays the same until you die. what i know now is that i am a very different person than i was when i was 25 so one would assume i will be different again at 35. this isn't a shocking bit of knowing but it is an awakening for me. i can be better and happier next year and the year after that, there isn't this lame lull of day to day crap i thought it would be.
there is freedom in arriving here, at this pitstop of 30 and knowing there is more to come. freedom in knowing everyday doesn't have to be the same as the one before and freedom to change and do and be whatever we want. arriving at 30 has made me free to let go of everything i've been hanging on to and freedom to move forward with determination.
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